I can't recall when it started to happen.. I think at least 2 months ago. My face started to have acne problem which really irritating. It brought me tears, pains, mentally attacks to me and my love one...my self confidence and self esteem getting lower and my love one hardly see the smiley face that I used to have (my trademark).
After diagnosed by doctor, this is mature acne problem that caused by imbalance of hormones and oil release. The medicine I am having now is Roaccutane and the condition will get worse before getting better. At this moment, it's the worse stage and it is good not to put on any makeup for another 2 weeks. I have been staying away from make up for quite sometime (when I am off duty). I felt weird sometimes and feel like hiding myself. I never go sightseeing because I can't accept the fact that taking picture with this situation.
Actually I am quite confused because I am not too sure what I really want...
If I am not flying, I have no income as I just finished my 10 days leave. $$$$ is quite important to me now as I am saving for my new house and wedding. :(
If I continue flying, my face might not recover fast and it'll bring me and my family more problems.
Furthermore, I don't feel like working on ground as an admin personnel to do filing.
However, I am going back to office and see what arrangement can be made.
The doctor advised me before "you must understand that the situation will get worse before getting better. When it recovers, your face will become nicer." hope the medicine really works this way.
Darling, I am sorry that I hurt you so many times and always lose temper at you. Thanks for being so patient to me. Love ya.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
A great relaxing weekend in Singapore
It's been a long time I didn't update here...I was so busy and didn't have much time for myself.
My darling came to Singapore 2 weeks ago...It was a short stay yet enjoyable. It's the first time he waited for me to come back from flight in my place. It's a kind of motivation when I was working onboard...I love the feeling because it makes me feel like after married couple life. I believe we'll be encountering it very soon.
On saturday morning, we woke up quite early and had no idea where should we go. We went to a shopping mall near to my place, Tampines One and we spent our day there. Evenythough it was halloween nite and I had plenty of ideas of celebration. But towards the end, we went to bed very early. It was a fun saturday because we had spent a lot on some meaningful things. We bought our wedding band from Soo Kee. It looks unique (in our view) as it's made of a mixture of white and rose gold. For mine, there is a row of tiny diamonds surrounded from the bottom part of the ring till the top. At least, this is something different than the usual wedding band that we see. It's the 'bond' that ties us together and our effort to make it a success one. We'd visited few shops before we decided to purchase. Darling asked to have a small ceremony ourselves in order to put on the wedding bands. (We had no idea whether there is any "pantang" on wearing the wedding band before our wedding day) However, he brought it back to KL and kept it nicely.
I bought a pair of shoes that is not a high heel but a ballroom function shoes. It looks elegant and I'll wear it on my BIG DAY... Besides that, eventually I bought a new mobile phone for myself as the old phone was giving me a lot of problems. The timespam for the fully charged battery can be flat anytime if I have a more than 10minutes chat. I bought HTC Diamond 2 as I like the outlook and it's light.
I think the best part about the weekend is when I asked darling: Where should we go? His answer for me made me feel touched and loved. "I don't really care where are we going, as long as it's with you."
My darling came to Singapore 2 weeks ago...It was a short stay yet enjoyable. It's the first time he waited for me to come back from flight in my place. It's a kind of motivation when I was working onboard...I love the feeling because it makes me feel like after married couple life. I believe we'll be encountering it very soon.
On saturday morning, we woke up quite early and had no idea where should we go. We went to a shopping mall near to my place, Tampines One and we spent our day there. Evenythough it was halloween nite and I had plenty of ideas of celebration. But towards the end, we went to bed very early. It was a fun saturday because we had spent a lot on some meaningful things. We bought our wedding band from Soo Kee. It looks unique (in our view) as it's made of a mixture of white and rose gold. For mine, there is a row of tiny diamonds surrounded from the bottom part of the ring till the top. At least, this is something different than the usual wedding band that we see. It's the 'bond' that ties us together and our effort to make it a success one. We'd visited few shops before we decided to purchase. Darling asked to have a small ceremony ourselves in order to put on the wedding bands. (We had no idea whether there is any "pantang" on wearing the wedding band before our wedding day) However, he brought it back to KL and kept it nicely.
I bought a pair of shoes that is not a high heel but a ballroom function shoes. It looks elegant and I'll wear it on my BIG DAY... Besides that, eventually I bought a new mobile phone for myself as the old phone was giving me a lot of problems. The timespam for the fully charged battery can be flat anytime if I have a more than 10minutes chat. I bought HTC Diamond 2 as I like the outlook and it's light.
I think the best part about the weekend is when I asked darling: Where should we go? His answer for me made me feel touched and loved. "I don't really care where are we going, as long as it's with you."
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
His Proposal ~ 11 Oct 09
After my London flight working in business class, I was so tired and felt reluctant to go back to KL. But I miss my darling a lot...I dragged my luggage and tiring soul to the airport.
When I arrived, I felt energetic and I was so happy to see him again. We hugged, kissed in the car. He likes to smell my hand because of my "baby" smell. We went to buy my supper, my all time favourite- Mat Tou Yao before heading home.
He asked me to wait for him in the "entertainment room" as he needed to do some preparation on the "surprise" he designed earlier. The only surprise that I thought of is print out the picture display in my blog, frame it and hang in his room. However, the surprise is really out of my extent of imagination...
He held my hand and led me to the room with the eye shade on. I lean against the wall and I was so excited to see what he had done for me. But the feeling is a bit scary as I don't know what will it be...
When I removed my eye shade, I was totally mute as I couldn't believe what had appeared in the scene. My tears are rolling in my eyes as I saw him kneeling down in front of me. He asked me to control my tears first before he proceed.
He showed me the propose ring and asked: "Lu Chai, marry me please. I want to have you as my wife, my children' mother... I want to start a family with you and it will be a perfect one. I'll work hard and earn more money."
This is really out of my expectation; I really confused and I didn't how should I react. But my first & most interesting reaction from me is: "My temper will be the same, can you take it?"
"It's okay. I'll change myself to bear with you instead."
He asked me again whether I'd accepted while he is trying to put the ring on my finger. "So, have you accepted me as your husband?"
With the fear and joy, my answer to him was "Yes, I do." He hugged me and kissed me with love. I can feel his NERVOUS before and HAPPINESS after I nodded my head.
This will be a major decision in my life. If I choose someone that I don't love and can't rely on, I'll suffer. I always dream of having him as my hubby but I didn't expect it to be so fast...
Darling, there are some words from my heart to you.
1. Thanks for choosing me as your life time partner. We are two different bodies but only one soul and heart that tight us together. We have to work hard for our future and next generation.
2. Even though I kept asking you "Why your proposal is in the room and not in public area?" "Why you don't give me flowers?" "Why don't you stick to the first proposal plan where you planned to do it in the arrival hall with a banner - WILL YOU MARRY ME, AMELIE?" "Why the diamond so small?"... However, I got the answers from you that is really satisfying. U said "Our wedding is belongs to both of us and not a show for others. If I do it in the public but if one day our relationship doesn't work well, it's meaningless. Thus, I chose to do it with my heart and own idea. The "forever friends" bear is our baby, you can bring it to anywhere you fly to as a companion from me. I decided not to give you flowers because I know you're not going to bring it back to Singapore as you have flight. I didn't go for the first plan as your schedule doesn't allow me to do so and I can't wait to propose as I'd planned it a year ago. The diamond ring that I bought for you is solitaire with GIA certification. I'll upgrade it to a bigger one ten years later."
I am happy to have you and sometimes I comparing you with others is for teasing purpose only.
3. Wedding planning will be a big issue in next coming months. I'd foreseen that it'll happen and I'll listen to your advice you given earlier. "Be more understanding and try to learn the choice of words when it comes to any conflict of ideas. Tell me what you want instead of showing black face only."
4. I hope we can stick to our initial plan: Buy wedding bands, ROM, Bali wedding photo and our big day. I am your wife now and I'll take up the role and learn as much as possible for our future.
I love you.
His effort for this proposal. Everything is in the dark...
My Ring that fits nicely on my finger...
When I arrived, I felt energetic and I was so happy to see him again. We hugged, kissed in the car. He likes to smell my hand because of my "baby" smell. We went to buy my supper, my all time favourite- Mat Tou Yao before heading home.
He asked me to wait for him in the "entertainment room" as he needed to do some preparation on the "surprise" he designed earlier. The only surprise that I thought of is print out the picture display in my blog, frame it and hang in his room. However, the surprise is really out of my extent of imagination...
He held my hand and led me to the room with the eye shade on. I lean against the wall and I was so excited to see what he had done for me. But the feeling is a bit scary as I don't know what will it be...
When I removed my eye shade, I was totally mute as I couldn't believe what had appeared in the scene. My tears are rolling in my eyes as I saw him kneeling down in front of me. He asked me to control my tears first before he proceed.
He showed me the propose ring and asked: "Lu Chai, marry me please. I want to have you as my wife, my children' mother... I want to start a family with you and it will be a perfect one. I'll work hard and earn more money."
This is really out of my expectation; I really confused and I didn't how should I react. But my first & most interesting reaction from me is: "My temper will be the same, can you take it?"
"It's okay. I'll change myself to bear with you instead."
He asked me again whether I'd accepted while he is trying to put the ring on my finger. "So, have you accepted me as your husband?"
With the fear and joy, my answer to him was "Yes, I do." He hugged me and kissed me with love. I can feel his NERVOUS before and HAPPINESS after I nodded my head.
This will be a major decision in my life. If I choose someone that I don't love and can't rely on, I'll suffer. I always dream of having him as my hubby but I didn't expect it to be so fast...
Darling, there are some words from my heart to you.
1. Thanks for choosing me as your life time partner. We are two different bodies but only one soul and heart that tight us together. We have to work hard for our future and next generation.
2. Even though I kept asking you "Why your proposal is in the room and not in public area?" "Why you don't give me flowers?" "Why don't you stick to the first proposal plan where you planned to do it in the arrival hall with a banner - WILL YOU MARRY ME, AMELIE?" "Why the diamond so small?"... However, I got the answers from you that is really satisfying. U said "Our wedding is belongs to both of us and not a show for others. If I do it in the public but if one day our relationship doesn't work well, it's meaningless. Thus, I chose to do it with my heart and own idea. The "forever friends" bear is our baby, you can bring it to anywhere you fly to as a companion from me. I decided not to give you flowers because I know you're not going to bring it back to Singapore as you have flight. I didn't go for the first plan as your schedule doesn't allow me to do so and I can't wait to propose as I'd planned it a year ago. The diamond ring that I bought for you is solitaire with GIA certification. I'll upgrade it to a bigger one ten years later."
I am happy to have you and sometimes I comparing you with others is for teasing purpose only.
3. Wedding planning will be a big issue in next coming months. I'd foreseen that it'll happen and I'll listen to your advice you given earlier. "Be more understanding and try to learn the choice of words when it comes to any conflict of ideas. Tell me what you want instead of showing black face only."
4. I hope we can stick to our initial plan: Buy wedding bands, ROM, Bali wedding photo and our big day. I am your wife now and I'll take up the role and learn as much as possible for our future.
I love you.
His effort for this proposal. Everything is in the dark...
My Ring that fits nicely on my finger...
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
My Check Report
Finally, I got my check report. Mostly 80 marks, one 90marks and two 70 marks. The comment for me is: Less confident and not observant. However, I'd foreseen my check result will be average because he is too strict. He was thinking whether to give a "NO" on my grooming column due to my skin problem. After he talked to our IFS, they decided to give me a "YES". If I got a "NO", I'll be called back to office and grounded.
On the way back, I was working in J-Class. It was a full flight and I worked non-stop for more than 12 hrs. I sacrified my crew rest also. This flight is really tiring and almost kill me. Luckily, I survived. I was working with one girl that really "draw line". She didn't give me a hand at all though I am new. I really think she is selfish and I couldn't stand it.
The service was quite slow and I kept asking my chief is it all my fault. She told me that "It's normal and J-class service is too draggy, especially full lunch and dinner service."
Wowwww....She is a nice chief that make me gain back my confidence instead of defeated by her hubby with the comment "Your J-class work is not good and you have to blush up"
On the way back, I was working in J-Class. It was a full flight and I worked non-stop for more than 12 hrs. I sacrified my crew rest also. This flight is really tiring and almost kill me. Luckily, I survived. I was working with one girl that really "draw line". She didn't give me a hand at all though I am new. I really think she is selfish and I couldn't stand it.
The service was quite slow and I kept asking my chief is it all my fault. She told me that "It's normal and J-class service is too draggy, especially full lunch and dinner service."
Wowwww....She is a nice chief that make me gain back my confidence instead of defeated by her hubby with the comment "Your J-class work is not good and you have to blush up"
Friday, October 9, 2009
In London with "Rojak" Feeling
I am currently in London and it's my second time here. It was light load yesterday on the way up and I was on check. My complex leader is good and he is satisfied with my job. But I think his requirement is high and hopefully I get a good check. He is a crew that always exceeds passengers' expectation. I'll update here again on my check result.
I was quite depressed as I don't feel like going out due to how I look now. Redness around my mouth and right cheek, acne and scar on my forehead. I don't feel like putting make up but how to take a good picture without a "mask" on???
Darling asked me to enjoy myself with the sightseeing and I tell myself "YES, I should FACE it instead of AVOID it". I should go for other options than staying in the room and feeling DOWN here.
Why I say "rojak" feeling? It is a mixture of happiness (I'll be seeing darling on Sunday), sadness(my stupid face), appreciative (My complex leader shared his experience with me) and worry (how is my check report as his requirement so HIGH and he kept emphasizing it)...
I was quite depressed as I don't feel like going out due to how I look now. Redness around my mouth and right cheek, acne and scar on my forehead. I don't feel like putting make up but how to take a good picture without a "mask" on???
Darling asked me to enjoy myself with the sightseeing and I tell myself "YES, I should FACE it instead of AVOID it". I should go for other options than staying in the room and feeling DOWN here.
Why I say "rojak" feeling? It is a mixture of happiness (I'll be seeing darling on Sunday), sadness(my stupid face), appreciative (My complex leader shared his experience with me) and worry (how is my check report as his requirement so HIGH and he kept emphasizing it)...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
What Happen to My Face?
I can't recall when it started but anyhow it happened... There are acne appeared on my forehead. It started to "spread" to my chin and mouth area... It's horrible.
I talked to darling about this; he ensured me that it was not related to my daily diet because I seldom take fried & oily food. I am mainly a vegetarian.
What is the root of the problem? My supplement that made my body's heat increased? My hair spray that I was using since the first day I joined SIA? My hormone changed? Long time I didn't go for facial?
After consuming then Collagen Drink that darling bought to me, I started to see the improvement on my face. But...
Yesterday, I was working in EY and there is another set of paxing crews. One of the crews asked me what happened to my face? The complexion is so bad. She suggested me to consult a doctor in Paragon shopping centre...
I felt depressed and low self confidence when I looked myself in the mirror. I told myself don't think about it and it'll make the condition worse. However, the pain is when others reminded you on that and asked you why you never do anything on that... It's like applying salt on your wound
I talked to darling about this; he ensured me that it was not related to my daily diet because I seldom take fried & oily food. I am mainly a vegetarian.
What is the root of the problem? My supplement that made my body's heat increased? My hair spray that I was using since the first day I joined SIA? My hormone changed? Long time I didn't go for facial?
After consuming then Collagen Drink that darling bought to me, I started to see the improvement on my face. But...
Yesterday, I was working in EY and there is another set of paxing crews. One of the crews asked me what happened to my face? The complexion is so bad. She suggested me to consult a doctor in Paragon shopping centre...
I felt depressed and low self confidence when I looked myself in the mirror. I told myself don't think about it and it'll make the condition worse. However, the pain is when others reminded you on that and asked you why you never do anything on that... It's like applying salt on your wound
Friday, October 2, 2009
The Feeling of Miserable and Helpless
I was so emotional these 2 days. What is the reason? Because I am not feeling well, neck ache, mental problem, homesick or lack of rest?
I really don't know. I just know that I feel lonely here and the feeling is scary. It reminds me the time when I studied in KTAR. I need a shoulder for me to lie on to; I need a hand which touches my face & head and tells me to be good; I need a warm hug and the sense of "security".
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to speak up my mind. But, I am really confuse here. I am sorry if I made you worry. But, why not you try to understand me?
What happened to me??? Can anyone tell me? Or because too many things happened at the same time made me feel miserable?
I really don't know. I just know that I feel lonely here and the feeling is scary. It reminds me the time when I studied in KTAR. I need a shoulder for me to lie on to; I need a hand which touches my face & head and tells me to be good; I need a warm hug and the sense of "security".
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to speak up my mind. But, I am really confuse here. I am sorry if I made you worry. But, why not you try to understand me?
What happened to me??? Can anyone tell me? Or because too many things happened at the same time made me feel miserable?
To be continued - My Zurich Flight
I was assigned to work with the b***h. However, I survived from the storm.
Throughout the flight, I just did whatever I need to do and gave my best. She was so impressed with my job and kept telling that she hardly get to work with crew as hardworking as me. I learnt something new from her and I really appreciated. Actually, she is not as bad as I mentioned earlier. This is only my first impression on her.
The galley steward also gave the same comment as I really helped him a lot. Of course la!!!In some circumstances, things that I'd done is reported "done" by him. But, mistakes that he did, he kept silent. Then, the pointer is on me again. But, I didn't argue; just swallowed it.
This is the disadvantage being nice like me. People will tend to "eat" you and taking advantages from you. Sighhhh... I really don't know what can I say.
Throughout the flight, I just did whatever I need to do and gave my best. She was so impressed with my job and kept telling that she hardly get to work with crew as hardworking as me. I learnt something new from her and I really appreciated. Actually, she is not as bad as I mentioned earlier. This is only my first impression on her.
The galley steward also gave the same comment as I really helped him a lot. Of course la!!!In some circumstances, things that I'd done is reported "done" by him. But, mistakes that he did, he kept silent. Then, the pointer is on me again. But, I didn't argue; just swallowed it.
This is the disadvantage being nice like me. People will tend to "eat" you and taking advantages from you. Sighhhh... I really don't know what can I say.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Rhine Falls @ Zurich
I decided to go out with my colleagues to the specific nature spectacle Rhine Falls. It's Europe's biggest waterfall. It's located at Northern Switzerland close to the German border. The journey took us an hour by train.
We got thrilled by this natural phenomenon by taking a boat ride close to the falls. It costs us CHF6.50. However, it was an awesome yet exciting experience.
The train to Rhine Falls
In the train.
Arrived... and the boat ride
The Rhine Falls
Me again with the Rhine Falls as my background (took in different angle)
I started to like this place, Zurich. The people here are nice and friendly; English is one of the common languages here and you'll feel relaxed when walking on the street. There are so many tourists' spots available here but I'd missed it. This will be one of the places that I am going to visit again. (BUT, the standard of living is too high... Things are very costly here)
During the journey, one of my colleagues commented that I am easily bullied by others due to the fact that I am too humble, polite and nice. She said I am easy going and helpful; crews will take advantages from me. I agree what she said but this is my personality. To avoid being bullied by the leading stewardess later, I told them I'll act cool today and talk less to show her how "fierce" I am...
I must be very firm and confident today. STOP raising your voice on me or insulting me, B***H.
We got thrilled by this natural phenomenon by taking a boat ride close to the falls. It costs us CHF6.50. However, it was an awesome yet exciting experience.
The train to Rhine Falls
In the train.
Arrived... and the boat ride
The Rhine Falls
Me again with the Rhine Falls as my background (took in different angle)
I started to like this place, Zurich. The people here are nice and friendly; English is one of the common languages here and you'll feel relaxed when walking on the street. There are so many tourists' spots available here but I'd missed it. This will be one of the places that I am going to visit again. (BUT, the standard of living is too high... Things are very costly here)
During the journey, one of my colleagues commented that I am easily bullied by others due to the fact that I am too humble, polite and nice. She said I am easy going and helpful; crews will take advantages from me. I agree what she said but this is my personality. To avoid being bullied by the leading stewardess later, I told them I'll act cool today and talk less to show her how "fierce" I am...
I must be very firm and confident today. STOP raising your voice on me or insulting me, B***H.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Blur + Dizzy + Gastric Fever
I kept telling myself to sleep more and ended up I could only sleep near 1am last night. Woke up few times in between and finally woke up at 9.45am.
When I woke up, I felt a bit of dizzy and gastric fever. Maybe I am not adjusted to the timing here yet (jet lag)? But I always follow Singapore time and it doesn't seem like a problem for me. Perhaps I didn't have any appetite and I didn't each much? Or because of the passenger sitting in front of me kept coughing during take off without covering his mouth? I felt discomfort at first but I couldn't do anything... The virus has entered my body? Better not!!!
I just took my breakfast and feeling slightly better now. But still feeling nauseous and blur...
Something to share here about the flight yesterday. I was working in J-class (Business Class) as galley steward's assistant yesterday. I was so blur and I was feeling guilty that I couldn't help a lot. This is only my second time working in this aircraft. BUT, I tried my best to accomplish every single task that I can handle myself. I think I'd done my best but I'll try to improve and speed up. Working with my chief is quite comfortable. He didn't give us pressure and worked together with us. There was one incident where he spilt the tea while he passed it to me. He said "F**K" without thinking much. I was thinking that he's scolding me and I apologized. However, he apologized to me instead when there was a chance and told me that he didn't mean that. He was blaming himself for it . Thus, I felt he is quite humble and nice. He is good looking and when you see him, you'll be surprise that he is a chief. He looks like a steward because he looks young and well maintained. But, there is one thing that I was disappointed with him is he was "trying" on one of my colleagues. He touched her face while talking to her on the journey to our hotel. It's terrible and I'll consider it as sexual harassment.
There is one leading stewardess that kept picking on me yesterday. She will be working in EY (economy zone) tomorrow and I am worried that I'll be assigned to work with her. It'll be a bad time for me... Hope everything will be fine.
When I woke up, I felt a bit of dizzy and gastric fever. Maybe I am not adjusted to the timing here yet (jet lag)? But I always follow Singapore time and it doesn't seem like a problem for me. Perhaps I didn't have any appetite and I didn't each much? Or because of the passenger sitting in front of me kept coughing during take off without covering his mouth? I felt discomfort at first but I couldn't do anything... The virus has entered my body? Better not!!!
I just took my breakfast and feeling slightly better now. But still feeling nauseous and blur...
Something to share here about the flight yesterday. I was working in J-class (Business Class) as galley steward's assistant yesterday. I was so blur and I was feeling guilty that I couldn't help a lot. This is only my second time working in this aircraft. BUT, I tried my best to accomplish every single task that I can handle myself. I think I'd done my best but I'll try to improve and speed up. Working with my chief is quite comfortable. He didn't give us pressure and worked together with us. There was one incident where he spilt the tea while he passed it to me. He said "F**K" without thinking much. I was thinking that he's scolding me and I apologized. However, he apologized to me instead when there was a chance and told me that he didn't mean that. He was blaming himself for it . Thus, I felt he is quite humble and nice. He is good looking and when you see him, you'll be surprise that he is a chief. He looks like a steward because he looks young and well maintained. But, there is one thing that I was disappointed with him is he was "trying" on one of my colleagues. He touched her face while talking to her on the journey to our hotel. It's terrible and I'll consider it as sexual harassment.
There is one leading stewardess that kept picking on me yesterday. She will be working in EY (economy zone) tomorrow and I am worried that I'll be assigned to work with her. It'll be a bad time for me... Hope everything will be fine.
Zurich- New Wing Room in Crowne Continental Hotel
I am currently in Zurich and it's 5.30pm here... I am still thinking whether I should go out for sightseeing tomorrow or hibernate in my room. I did this flight few times but I didn't go out for sightseeing. Reason being: it was winter and not a good weather to go out or darling's sister, Patricia came to look for me and brought me out.
The best thing about this trip is we managed to get the new wing room instead of the old one. I showed Pat the new renovated room and she commented that it is better in look. It is more comfy and modern design.
Let's don't think so much and just follows what your mind thinks & your body wants. Most of time they have conflict: I wish to stay in the room and wait for my darling to online and can rest earlier VS I hope to explore more and take more pictures. Better stop here and gonna meet my darling in my dream.
The best thing about this trip is we managed to get the new wing room instead of the old one. I showed Pat the new renovated room and she commented that it is better in look. It is more comfy and modern design.
Let's don't think so much and just follows what your mind thinks & your body wants. Most of time they have conflict: I wish to stay in the room and wait for my darling to online and can rest earlier VS I hope to explore more and take more pictures. Better stop here and gonna meet my darling in my dream.
My Sweet Display Picture with Love
Did you see my new displayed picture? It's from my darling... I asked him the comment on my last displayed picture; he told me that he didn't like it and asked me why I always follow other people idea? It sounds like I am just following the footprint and have nothing much in my mind.
There is something that I would like to clarify: initially I was displaying my picture as the header and it was a bit large in the layout. I was quite satisfied with it until I realized I looked pale in the photo. Thus, my best friend Xiao Pang gave me the idea to make one that composes of many pictures.
However, darling promised to make a set of pictures for me to display in my blog. It will be monthly basis; changes every month. I was so happy on his contribution. To him, I am like a kid. By giving me some little surprise, I'll be satisfied and stay happily ever.
Tell you some secret behind the displayed picture here. Did you notice that bottom left there is some captions start with "I Love You The Way..", "The Way You..." It's actually a poem that my darling wrote for me. He showed me this poem on the day we started our relationship. It was a sweet memory because he was observing me during that period of time and he pen it down. He is not good in telling you in person but good in writing. (What I like or dislike? How I react in some circumstances that stayed in his memory? Describing some of my gesture or action that I had without knowing it) Darling, you still owed me a novel. You promised to write a novel about me but you have not start it yet,even a single paragraph. Looking forward to it... Love ya, muakssss
There is something that I would like to clarify: initially I was displaying my picture as the header and it was a bit large in the layout. I was quite satisfied with it until I realized I looked pale in the photo. Thus, my best friend Xiao Pang gave me the idea to make one that composes of many pictures.
However, darling promised to make a set of pictures for me to display in my blog. It will be monthly basis; changes every month. I was so happy on his contribution. To him, I am like a kid. By giving me some little surprise, I'll be satisfied and stay happily ever.
Tell you some secret behind the displayed picture here. Did you notice that bottom left there is some captions start with "I Love You The Way..", "The Way You..." It's actually a poem that my darling wrote for me. He showed me this poem on the day we started our relationship. It was a sweet memory because he was observing me during that period of time and he pen it down. He is not good in telling you in person but good in writing. (What I like or dislike? How I react in some circumstances that stayed in his memory? Describing some of my gesture or action that I had without knowing it) Darling, you still owed me a novel. You promised to write a novel about me but you have not start it yet,even a single paragraph. Looking forward to it... Love ya, muakssss
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
My Surprise
Darling was in the town
I touched down on 20th and darling came to sin on that day. He was here for 2 nights.
On the first day, we went to Sunshine Plaza and Iluma Shopping Centre. We took our dinner at Empire State. We ordered smoked salmon as our appetizer, home made burger and cheesy baked mussels.The conclusion we made is: the food are so-so only.
On the next morning, I prepared breakfast for him. The main course I had for him is Denmark Grilled Pork Sausages, Sunny Shine Up and Mushroom Omelet. He enjoyed eating it...I know he'll feel happy if I always cook for him.
This is the second meal that I prepared for him
We went to Thiong Bahru Plaza and Ion Mall after our breakfast. We took our lunch in Ion Mall's foodcourt and the food were nice.
Hakka "suan pan zi"
Dumpling
Fried carrot cake
Time flies fast... Darling went back to KL yesterday and I am a bit "down" here. "Down" in a way that we are seeing each other after 2 weeks; I'll be alone again and I hate the "separate" feeling. You won't be seeing me laughing, you won't be seeing me sleep soundly and deeply by your side, you won't be seeing me eating a lot...
By the way, I just tried on my pants and I think I gained weight le... Fat around my hips. SHITTTT!!! I must get rid of all the extra fats that makes me looked fat.
On the first day, we went to Sunshine Plaza and Iluma Shopping Centre. We took our dinner at Empire State. We ordered smoked salmon as our appetizer, home made burger and cheesy baked mussels.The conclusion we made is: the food are so-so only.
On the next morning, I prepared breakfast for him. The main course I had for him is Denmark Grilled Pork Sausages, Sunny Shine Up and Mushroom Omelet. He enjoyed eating it...I know he'll feel happy if I always cook for him.
This is the second meal that I prepared for him
We went to Thiong Bahru Plaza and Ion Mall after our breakfast. We took our lunch in Ion Mall's foodcourt and the food were nice.
Hakka "suan pan zi"
Dumpling
Fried carrot cake
Time flies fast... Darling went back to KL yesterday and I am a bit "down" here. "Down" in a way that we are seeing each other after 2 weeks; I'll be alone again and I hate the "separate" feeling. You won't be seeing me laughing, you won't be seeing me sleep soundly and deeply by your side, you won't be seeing me eating a lot...
By the way, I just tried on my pants and I think I gained weight le... Fat around my hips. SHITTTT!!! I must get rid of all the extra fats that makes me looked fat.
Friday, September 18, 2009
My New Display Picture
I asked xiao pang about my displayed picture; he told me that the picture looks big and I looked pale . He preferred janelle's one. He suggested me to do it myself and download the software from www.picasa.google.com.
I tried to do it and I inserted some of the pictures I took while I am travelling & working. I was quite "proud" of myself that I'd made it. While I am doing the photo editing, I realized that I'd traveled some of the places that I dreamt of when I was small. It has made a difference on my personal profile and it will be a good memory indeed.
Thanks xiao pang for making me feel so good about my job again and I'll try to share more on my journey experience.
I tried to do it and I inserted some of the pictures I took while I am travelling & working. I was quite "proud" of myself that I'd made it. While I am doing the photo editing, I realized that I'd traveled some of the places that I dreamt of when I was small. It has made a difference on my personal profile and it will be a good memory indeed.
Thanks xiao pang for making me feel so good about my job again and I'll try to share more on my journey experience.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Oasis Condominium @ Bayu Puteri
It's been quite some time. This is my parents' dream to have our own house and they always put their hopes on me. I might fulfill their wishes soon...
On Monday and Tuesday, my mum and I were busy viewing the house. We decided to buy the unit and we'd submitted for SUK approval. (The unit is initially reserved for bumiputera. We need to submit for approval in order to sell it to Non-bumiputera).
My mum looked very happy but not my dad. Maybe he prefer landed property which having his own garden yard and can keep dog. However, we are small family and it's hazardous to stay in a larger house with small number of family member in JB. The crime rate here is the highest in Malaysia.
Frankly speaking, for a 1174sq.ft condominium, costing more than 200k, it's not worth that price. But, from another point of view, I have some points that convinced me to invest in that unit:
1. My parents are getting older and I am always away. If there is anything emergencies, my aunty is just staying at the neighboring block. Thus, I will feel more secure in a way
2. My mum always worry about my brother; by moving near to the town, he can't find any excuses to 'escape' from her (moving out to stay with his friends)
3. I really need a room for myself because I find very inconvenience to sleep with my brother (esp when his girlfriend is coming over to our place, but it's over few weeks ago)
4. I want to do whatever that can make my parents happy now. They'd suffered for so many years to bring us up. It's time for me to repay their effort
It's time for me to save more money now for new furniture and renovation later. Though I am taking the smallest room but I'm trying to make my room to become a nice and comfy one.
On Monday and Tuesday, my mum and I were busy viewing the house. We decided to buy the unit and we'd submitted for SUK approval. (The unit is initially reserved for bumiputera. We need to submit for approval in order to sell it to Non-bumiputera).
My mum looked very happy but not my dad. Maybe he prefer landed property which having his own garden yard and can keep dog. However, we are small family and it's hazardous to stay in a larger house with small number of family member in JB. The crime rate here is the highest in Malaysia.
Frankly speaking, for a 1174sq.ft condominium, costing more than 200k, it's not worth that price. But, from another point of view, I have some points that convinced me to invest in that unit:
1. My parents are getting older and I am always away. If there is anything emergencies, my aunty is just staying at the neighboring block. Thus, I will feel more secure in a way
2. My mum always worry about my brother; by moving near to the town, he can't find any excuses to 'escape' from her (moving out to stay with his friends)
3. I really need a room for myself because I find very inconvenience to sleep with my brother (esp when his girlfriend is coming over to our place, but it's over few weeks ago)
4. I want to do whatever that can make my parents happy now. They'd suffered for so many years to bring us up. It's time for me to repay their effort
It's time for me to save more money now for new furniture and renovation later. Though I am taking the smallest room but I'm trying to make my room to become a nice and comfy one.
Friday, September 11, 2009
My Second Solo in Business Class
This is really unexpected. My name is the most bottom one in the list, however I was assigned to work in J-class. I didn't prepare for it at all; order pad, name list.. furthermore 300ER, complicated galley.
My chief looks fierce and he gave us a briefing before boarding. "If you are rose, I'll tell you that you are. If you are thorn, then don't deny it and act as a rose. Cabin Crew are good at acting but I am not. I want you all to act as an adult and don't do anything that I can't accept and give problems to others"
I was lucky that I have a colleague who really "helped" me a lot. Why I say that? Sometimes, I felt that she really give me a hand; certain time I felt she is fake. Am I bad to think other people in this way?
With her existance, the service of our aisle works smoothly. I admitted that she really did a good job. However, everytime when I wanted to accomplish my task and she'll take my job away and ask me to do the unnecessary things. I felt frustrated and I wanna tell her that I know my job.
I was the "RUNNER" during the meal service. I ran 2 aisles to distribute the main course. There was a mistake made on the main course distribution and it was for the nasty PPS. But I don't think that I am the one who did wrong. However, everyone is "assuming" that I was the one. :(
I broke the starter plates and it was loud and clear that even can be heard in the cabin. When our chief gave us another briefing, he asked about it. I admitted my mistake and one senior was impressed on me. She told me that she likes my honesty. In fact, to me is a common thing. Just admit whatever mistake you'd done instead of hiding it with a lot of lies.
The second meal service works well. I helped to clean galley and worked happily with the crew. This called "teamwork" and we enjoyed it. I knew the PPS submitted his complaint letter though we "survived" till the end of the flight...
During landing, my leading stewardess asked me "Did IFS talk to you?" Why he wanna talk to me? Did my chief complained anything to him? Or he wanna write me in? I think my job still okay and I don't deserve all these... Then what will it be? The truth will be out tonite.
My chief looks fierce and he gave us a briefing before boarding. "If you are rose, I'll tell you that you are. If you are thorn, then don't deny it and act as a rose. Cabin Crew are good at acting but I am not. I want you all to act as an adult and don't do anything that I can't accept and give problems to others"
I was lucky that I have a colleague who really "helped" me a lot. Why I say that? Sometimes, I felt that she really give me a hand; certain time I felt she is fake. Am I bad to think other people in this way?
With her existance, the service of our aisle works smoothly. I admitted that she really did a good job. However, everytime when I wanted to accomplish my task and she'll take my job away and ask me to do the unnecessary things. I felt frustrated and I wanna tell her that I know my job.
I was the "RUNNER" during the meal service. I ran 2 aisles to distribute the main course. There was a mistake made on the main course distribution and it was for the nasty PPS. But I don't think that I am the one who did wrong. However, everyone is "assuming" that I was the one. :(
I broke the starter plates and it was loud and clear that even can be heard in the cabin. When our chief gave us another briefing, he asked about it. I admitted my mistake and one senior was impressed on me. She told me that she likes my honesty. In fact, to me is a common thing. Just admit whatever mistake you'd done instead of hiding it with a lot of lies.
The second meal service works well. I helped to clean galley and worked happily with the crew. This called "teamwork" and we enjoyed it. I knew the PPS submitted his complaint letter though we "survived" till the end of the flight...
During landing, my leading stewardess asked me "Did IFS talk to you?" Why he wanna talk to me? Did my chief complained anything to him? Or he wanna write me in? I think my job still okay and I don't deserve all these... Then what will it be? The truth will be out tonite.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Me. Daneal
It has been four years; we went through a lot. From an "underground" senior-junior relationship developed to loving couple relationship.; from normal to long distance relationship. We are from different universe and fate brings us together. Frankly speaking, there was few times "break up" decision came across to our mind. However, it's still survived with more understanding and tolerance.
One of my best friends, Tate said "Pei, is hard to ask other to change, rather easier for you to change. We always trying to change our partner but what we receive is disappointment and unhappiness"
In fact, I truly understand it. It will be better if you can accept his shortcomings than transform him into how you want him to be.
He is always my English teacher, he has a good command of English and always correct me when I make mistake. But the way he correct me is really unacceptable. "So easy also you don't know/ your English level stops at primary 6/ Watch more Taiwanese drama then your English will improve a lot" ... He said all these in order to motivate and encourage me to speak English. I love playing his Nintendo by his side. He is my real time dictionary and sometimes I completed the game without his help. "Wowww, Lu is really 'sai lei' now, don't need darling anymore"
However, without him, I think I won't have confidence speaking in English. I won't start reading novel when I am outstation with no internet available. I won't be the translator for my parents, where they are really proud of me. :P
We had an agreement before. If one day we have children, he'll be the one who teaches them English and Malay; he'll be guiding them toward the efficient way in study. He always believe that NO Last Minute Effort and it's useless to study without sleeping.
Besides that, he is a good western food cook. He cooked few times on special occasion. I was thinking to cook for him once and I bought all the ingredients from Milan, Italy. It ended up he was the cook again though he was not feeling well. I felt guilty but sweet in my heart. I planned to learn cooking but until now I'd not make any move yet...
* This is the Spaghetti Carbonara he prepared. It was nice and I love it so much.
He is a mature and realistic in some of the thinking, especially love matters. He is the ADVISOR in his group of friends when to it. However, he admitted that he is a good friend/listener but not a good lover. He was curious about it and couldn't figure out what happen to him. In fact, I am always the mirror of him. I am very patience with my friends but not for him. I am willing to spend time with my friend when they encounter problem but I might overlook he has his "downtime" also. He always said " Only you'll have problem but not others" It's true, I expect him to please me and accept if I lose temper. On the other hand, he rarely throw temper on me and I thought he has nothing to worry. Darling, sorry that I am not understanding but I can't promise that I'll not lose my temper anymore. It takes time to change. ( Don't laugh when you see this message)
He loves his PSP, Gundam and PC game. When we just started the relationship, I asked myself "Can you accept this guy? Do you mind?" I might get angry & jealous sometimes if he is paying more attention on his babies and not me. My parents and friends might think he is childish and irresponsible. I'd accepted the fact and I knew that this is how he release his tension. But, please try to ACT MATURE in front of my parents next time...
It's part of his introduction and our story sharing. I think he is going to say "Sui Lu, why you write all the bad thing about me?" To me, it's not bad thing. It's the true Daneal that I might have my future with.
Law of attraction really play a part in my life now. Thanks my bestie Janelle on this. Thus, I would like to exercise it again here.
1. Daneal is getting a better job with higher pay in Singapore. The most important is better career path
2. Our 1st landed property in Malaysia. The interior design is Balinese style; comfy king size bed in the master bedroom, entertainment room with plasma TV...
3. Our garden wedding where the most important thing is we get the blessing from our true friends and family members, instead of being the MONKEYS on our big day
4. Your Honda Accord and my Toyota Harrier. We may drive Civic for normal outing and Harrier when we are driving back to KL
5. Our honeymoon to Tokyo and Hokaido. Watching sakura, traditional japanese cuisine, shopping for gundam, accessories and clothes... We have lots to explore there
One of my best friends, Tate said "Pei, is hard to ask other to change, rather easier for you to change. We always trying to change our partner but what we receive is disappointment and unhappiness"
In fact, I truly understand it. It will be better if you can accept his shortcomings than transform him into how you want him to be.
He is always my English teacher, he has a good command of English and always correct me when I make mistake. But the way he correct me is really unacceptable. "So easy also you don't know/ your English level stops at primary 6/ Watch more Taiwanese drama then your English will improve a lot" ... He said all these in order to motivate and encourage me to speak English. I love playing his Nintendo by his side. He is my real time dictionary and sometimes I completed the game without his help. "Wowww, Lu is really 'sai lei' now, don't need darling anymore"
However, without him, I think I won't have confidence speaking in English. I won't start reading novel when I am outstation with no internet available. I won't be the translator for my parents, where they are really proud of me. :P
We had an agreement before. If one day we have children, he'll be the one who teaches them English and Malay; he'll be guiding them toward the efficient way in study. He always believe that NO Last Minute Effort and it's useless to study without sleeping.
Besides that, he is a good western food cook. He cooked few times on special occasion. I was thinking to cook for him once and I bought all the ingredients from Milan, Italy. It ended up he was the cook again though he was not feeling well. I felt guilty but sweet in my heart. I planned to learn cooking but until now I'd not make any move yet...
* This is the Spaghetti Carbonara he prepared. It was nice and I love it so much.
He is a mature and realistic in some of the thinking, especially love matters. He is the ADVISOR in his group of friends when to it. However, he admitted that he is a good friend/listener but not a good lover. He was curious about it and couldn't figure out what happen to him. In fact, I am always the mirror of him. I am very patience with my friends but not for him. I am willing to spend time with my friend when they encounter problem but I might overlook he has his "downtime" also. He always said " Only you'll have problem but not others" It's true, I expect him to please me and accept if I lose temper. On the other hand, he rarely throw temper on me and I thought he has nothing to worry. Darling, sorry that I am not understanding but I can't promise that I'll not lose my temper anymore. It takes time to change. ( Don't laugh when you see this message)
He loves his PSP, Gundam and PC game. When we just started the relationship, I asked myself "Can you accept this guy? Do you mind?" I might get angry & jealous sometimes if he is paying more attention on his babies and not me. My parents and friends might think he is childish and irresponsible. I'd accepted the fact and I knew that this is how he release his tension. But, please try to ACT MATURE in front of my parents next time...
It's part of his introduction and our story sharing. I think he is going to say "Sui Lu, why you write all the bad thing about me?" To me, it's not bad thing. It's the true Daneal that I might have my future with.
Law of attraction really play a part in my life now. Thanks my bestie Janelle on this. Thus, I would like to exercise it again here.
1. Daneal is getting a better job with higher pay in Singapore. The most important is better career path
2. Our 1st landed property in Malaysia. The interior design is Balinese style; comfy king size bed in the master bedroom, entertainment room with plasma TV...
3. Our garden wedding where the most important thing is we get the blessing from our true friends and family members, instead of being the MONKEYS on our big day
4. Your Honda Accord and my Toyota Harrier. We may drive Civic for normal outing and Harrier when we are driving back to KL
5. Our honeymoon to Tokyo and Hokaido. Watching sakura, traditional japanese cuisine, shopping for gundam, accessories and clothes... We have lots to explore there
First Time Working in Busness Class
After my JC 99 training, this is my first solo working in business class cabin. The feeling is really different and i think i prefer to work in is environment.
The major difference between business class and economy class is the service flow. In economy class, the passenger will retrieve a tray wit everything on top; however in business class the service is like fine-dining...Hors d'oeurve, main course, dessert, cheese & fruit, coffee & tea, pralines..
I can feel I am growing up, perhaps I learn from my flying experience. Compared to the time I first joined the airline and a year later, I'd built up my confidence to communicate with the passenger without any fear... I am aware what is the service procedure and can foresee what to do next, instead of waiting for instruction.
Recall back to my JC 99 training, I slept very early at night and worries free...I found my new learning method which is more efficient and effective. KEEP YOU ALERT during the training RETAIN KNOWLEDGE EASILY. I would like to thank my trainer, Ms Doris who did a great job on teaching us and simulate the situation. I really appreciate your willingness to share a lot of experience with us.
Work is not a problem for me now; I am on my way to explore how to become an elegant crew with excellent service.
The major difference between business class and economy class is the service flow. In economy class, the passenger will retrieve a tray wit everything on top; however in business class the service is like fine-dining...Hors d'oeurve, main course, dessert, cheese & fruit, coffee & tea, pralines..
I can feel I am growing up, perhaps I learn from my flying experience. Compared to the time I first joined the airline and a year later, I'd built up my confidence to communicate with the passenger without any fear... I am aware what is the service procedure and can foresee what to do next, instead of waiting for instruction.
Recall back to my JC 99 training, I slept very early at night and worries free...I found my new learning method which is more efficient and effective. KEEP YOU ALERT during the training RETAIN KNOWLEDGE EASILY. I would like to thank my trainer, Ms Doris who did a great job on teaching us and simulate the situation. I really appreciate your willingness to share a lot of experience with us.
Work is not a problem for me now; I am on my way to explore how to become an elegant crew with excellent service.
Friday, September 4, 2009
His Effort
Yesterday, 4 sept, my darling was very excited to see his Citibank statement. It never exists in this four years. He is upset and depress everytime he sees it.
The online statement was not sent to him due to some technical problem. he'll be receiving a hard copy instead. He called fei ma and asked her to check any mail in the mailbox..
Then he asked me this "Lu, do u know how much i owed bank now? My outstanding..."
I asked "how much?"
"it's only RM300 left.. i called Citibank this afternoon and the girl told me that total is RM2800. I paid RM2500 and only RM300 left"
I am really happy for him at least he is going to clear his debt.
I know he does this because of me... I kept complaining that he didn't put effort in our relationship and future. He really prove to me that he can do it!
Darling, keep it up... we shall think of our first property, your dream car, our holidays, our wedding, our future...
The online statement was not sent to him due to some technical problem. he'll be receiving a hard copy instead. He called fei ma and asked her to check any mail in the mailbox..
Then he asked me this "Lu, do u know how much i owed bank now? My outstanding..."
I asked "how much?"
"it's only RM300 left.. i called Citibank this afternoon and the girl told me that total is RM2800. I paid RM2500 and only RM300 left"
I am really happy for him at least he is going to clear his debt.
I know he does this because of me... I kept complaining that he didn't put effort in our relationship and future. He really prove to me that he can do it!
Darling, keep it up... we shall think of our first property, your dream car, our holidays, our wedding, our future...
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