Words from my Heart

I am an ALCOHOLIC (if you trust me)

Last Friday, after having Sakae Sushi with hubby, we went home happily because I was not called up for any flight. (I was on standby)
I bought a bottle of champagne from Paris and we decided to drink it..
Both of us were not in a good mood. He was stressed up with his work; and I was unhappy seeing him suffering and I couldn't do anything. As usual, I am still thinking of some $$$ matters that is out of my control. (Don't worry, I am better now =) )
After a glass, I felt the heat from my body and face.. I was RED as a Japanese baby octopus.. I started to feel dizzy and sleepy. I fell asleep and woke up few times for "toilet breaks". I really feel "drunk" and I couldn't stand for long. I felt like wanna puke but luckily still under my control..
I slept for almost 3 hrs and awoke at 3am.. I was so alert and I couldn't sleep anymore. I continued reading my boring book "A Place Called Here" and able to finish it. By the time, it was 6am in the morning.
Gosh, you won't believe how energetic I was after the drunk symptoms I had. I slept for another 3 hrs.. The feeling is scary in a way I don't know my body clock now. Am I suffering from Jet Lag or anything else? :S

My Christmas Pressie 2010

Though it was a tiring London flight, but I was glad that someone was waiting for my return.
When I stepped into my room, I was surprise that I saw the Precious Moment table calendar and a new Starbucks tumbler on my dressing table.
"Wowww, you bought this for me?"
"Yea."
"What is it for? X'mas?" while looking at the receipt of the tumbler (he forgot to throw it away).
"Ya."
"Why don't you give me on Christmas Day?"
"I don't like the feeling that I have to keep it as secret and hide it.. I am nervous and will feel uneasy..."
"Why don't you buy it later instead?"
"I feel like giving it to you now."
"Then there isn't any surprise for me for my Christmas.."
"..."
Haha.. That's my hubby. He bought me the things I like and he just can't wait to see how happy am I when I get it. This was what exactly had happened when he proposed..
Maybe I am different; I love surprise but without it I still feel sweet.
Thanks, hubby...

This is the 2nd tumbler he bought for me.. The first one it was 5 years ago.. I love Christmas!!

My First Baking Lesson

I was really sick on Tuesday since 7am morning when I woke up caused by a bad headache.. Feeling nausea and gastric unwell.. However, I told myself "Don't give excuses!! I must attend the class because I got companion."
The class started at 1.30pm; when we were there, the lady told me that our names were registered under evening class (7pm-9pm). OMG!! Don't tell me I really missed it because of her mistake. Luckily, the lady able to slot us in the afternoon class..
We didn't get any equipment needed from the rack and kept chatting to each other. Luckily there was a malay lady told us that. The instructor is Mr Patrick Lim; he doesn't smile and looks sarcastic. But, luckily he is nice..
Please take a look what I have done..

It looks like Charcoal because it is "Dark Raisin Bread with Charcoal Powder". The presentation might not be convincing but it tastes good. It will be better if it is softer. =)

You won't believe that this is baked by Amelie, first timer.. This is "Chocolate Yoghurt Macha Cake". 3 different layers indicate 3 different flavors. The chocolate layer is the best, because it is not too sweet. The layers look a bit imbalance because we were struggling on the measurement and ended up we did some wrong calculation. I think if I am experienced, I will just pour out the mixture with eye level measurement as others did.

There is one thing that I realized I am weak with is making the dough into a presentable look. My dough always turn out to be "weird" and ugly. I must google or youtube to improve my skill.
I think I am interested in learning baking and hope this will be my hobby or side business in the future. =)
Some pictures taken during the class:

Before the class starts..

Our names on the Charcoal Bread

Amelie with her result..

Jamie with her result..

Jamie and I like this picture a lot.. I looked like a feminine & modern type housewife.

A New Move in Year 2010

I just finished typing my resume, not edit but redo it. I lost my old resume..
I am going to look for a new job. I don't really enjoy flying but I'll miss the money, sight seeing and some good crew I met for sure. I am in a hard position now because I can't take this job anymore due to the red light alighted on my health condition. I can't live with my selfishness but have to spare a mind to my love one. We should have more time together before starting our family.
Sometimes I'll blame myself of being so weak (emotionally and physically)... Why I can't take it lightly like other stewardess? Why I can't sleep anytime I want? Why my body can't cope with the new life style here?
However, I realized that THIS IS Amelie.. I won't force myself anymore. My hubby wants a healthier and prettier wife; not a zombie wife. Goodluck to me!!!

I Can Cook?!

1/11/2010 8pm
Main Course: Pan Fried Salmon with Hollandaise Source
Side Dish: Baby Spinach Salad with Balsamic Dressing
Time of Preparation: 2Hrs

This is my attempt to cook for my hubby. He didn't get any surprise on my intention but the cuisine that I chose.
Beforehand, I'd told him several times that "I will learn how to cook simple dishes for you, then you will have home made dinner every time you come back from work." Thus, it turn out to be an expectation for him.
I planned to go back JB on that day; however he wanted me to stay with him since I was away for nearly a week. I was restless and having jet lag; I really have no mood to do anything beside REST.
However, this is a good opportunity for me to treat him better. I dragged myself to NTUC for the ingredients needed.
Yo won't believe that I never refer to any recipe on how to cook. Everything is by my imagination!!!
I was so stressful while I am preparing the dishes because my landlord uncle and aunty were in the living room watching at me. The only in my mind is: Do it FAST!!!
I hope I have more ideas on cooking.. When you see your love one finished the dishes that you'd prepared, this is the other type of satisfaction you'll get.
I gave myself 85% for my first attempt; the food is good in taste but the salmon didn't turn out to be what I wanted. The salad is good and appetizing. I am proud of myself. =)

The ingredients cost less than $50 and you'll have dining experience at home.

Ta Dah!!! This is what I had cooked. Nice and mouth watering, right?

I had made a step out from WHAT I CAN DO. I never know that I can cook but I believe it takes time and experience to make it better. I learn and do something new and it made me feel great. More new things to COME!!!

A Promise. A Given

What is the difference between A PROMISE and A GIVEN?
A promise is thing that someone will do for you but there isn't any dateline on it. Or maybe yes, but it will turn out to be an order or instruction.
A given is thing that had done for you without your knowledge and expectation.
I love promise from him..
Promise to take care of me
Promise to give me a good life
Promise to help me to improve myself
Promise to upgrade my diamond
Promise ...
However, ever since last Sunday, he did something that made me think differently.
After I came back from flight, I took a nap until 1pm. He prepared a wonderful brunch for me and helped to do laundry. He even helped to tidy up my mess (all the shopping bags that I left under my bed) and kept it nicely in different boxes.
These are the things that I never expect him to do for me. But eventually he did it. This called "Given".
We were having a small chat, it was about life.
"Lu Chai, do you find any difference before and after married?"
"Errr.. You sayang me more lo and I felt I am pampered." while munching my bread.
"But any difference on your side? You are my wife now, did you do anything different?"
"..."
Yea, I must admit that I can't think of anything else beside laundry, cleaning room and ironing. These are the duties I had before married, since he moved to Sin.
I didn't play a good role as his wife.
I am always away when he needs to talk to someone
I am not at his side to share his happiness and sadness
I always make him worry about me (my body and my sleeping problem)
I promise I'll cook for him but I never make a move to learn
I promise I wanna learn a new skill and occupy my time usefully but I am still addicted in FB

"Remember, what other couple do might not work on us. If you have any new idea or comment, tell me and we'll see how it works on us. I do not want any misunderstanding to ruin our relationship, you know?"
This is what he told me and you can see the effort he "inject" in our relationship. But how about my part to make it a perfect one?
What other couple's promise to another, it will turn up to be a given from me. Trust me, my love.

AMELIE, Move!!!

I found out that I had plenty of ideas for my wedding but I just need a kick on my butt to make me move... I just have to make a small step ahead then I can start working on it..
Am I too tired or lazy to make a move?
I should be concentrating on the wedding preparation and marriage; instead of kept thinking of why I get cold shoulders or invisible competition from people who is hurting me.

Milan and Venice with Jamie

I was rostered to do a flight with Jamie, my high school's friend for 2 years. We planned to go Venice and stayed a night there.
This is the last day of the trip and I gonna check out later. Lastnite, we were having a drinking session in my room, a bottle of sparking wine Rose.. We talked a lot and this is the first time we felt that we enjoyed the job. (How sad it sounds like) LOL
Though I am not following my regular sleeping pattern, I ate a lot in irregular timing, I got few pimples on my face due to restless and heat in the body; however I enjoyed the accompany. I gonna post our pictures taken in my next coming posts and tell you more about the trip..
This is my first time I am not online with my hubby and this is kinda weird feeling for me...

You are My Sunshine; Melted My Sadness and Worries

Darling, thanks for showering me with your care when things do not go as what we planned. Sorry that I made you worry during your work. As a wife, I should be able to take care of myself without distracting you from your work.
You told me that you understood the situation I was in. You made an assumption to ensure me that your love will not change though there are changes on our wedding. You teached me to be flexible and understanable in the situation where my parents comment came in.
Do you know that when I feel the touch from you, I always think that all the bad stuffs are melted together and disappeared. You always have your way to make me feel better.
The attention from you made me feel that I am your priority in your life.
As you said, you wanna give me a good hubby that really cares about me and our future. No empty promises and fake hopes are given. These are the things I am looking into it, and you knew it. I always believe that GOD is pampering me; he provides me a good family and gives me a good hubby. But why am I so impatient when things go wrong? Why can't I wait for a little while to solve the problem? Am I still a perfectionist that making myself can't breath? Or I am just over worried like my mum?
Regardless what, I will try to make my EQ higher.. You know that I want our wedding to be a simple yet memorable. Thus, I'll take this wedding preparation as a learning experience for us and a big step into the new chapter of our life.
Thanks, darling..

Please Address Me As "Mrs. Hon"

I am proud to announce that I am Mrs Hon now.
Though we are going to hold our customary wedding next year, but officially I am Mrs Hon and my status is upgraded to "married" and no longer "single".
We had our ROM on 11Oct10. A lot of people asked "Why not 101010?"
1. A lot of people will register on 101010 and it will turn out to be a group event instead of individual
2. My hubby proposed to me on 11Oct09 and I find it more meaningful if we get married on the same day and it'll be a memorable day for us
I felt I was the happiest bride on my ROM day. I have my family and my closest friend from JB to witness the special moment.. I can feel the happiness around the place and everyone eyes are on me. In fact, I had plenty of ideas for my ROM and it didn't turn out to be what I wished. But, I am really happy and I think "Not to stress over everything and happy with what you have" will make you love the "simple happiness".
Things that I had planned earlier are listed here:
1. I wanna have my ROM in Garden but due to additional cost incurred, I chose to go JPN instead
2. I wished to have a great buffet lunch in Shangri La hotel with my family and friends. It'll be a private function or room for us but in the end my father invited my aunties. I don't really willing to spend that much on them and thus I'd to call it off
3. I had done my survey on what kind of cake I want. I was thinking to cut it during the lunch session. I like romantic and sweet feeling; soft color and simple design will be the best. But, our plan on head is have simple lunch in Oriental Pavilion (where we hope to hold our banquet there), so I think it's not suitable and I don't have "resources" to book and collect for me. This is similar to what I want but the design can be better.. =p


4. The hand bouquet. I want something simple and small. The color of roses I want is light pinkish purple.. Though a lot of people commented that my hand banquet is too small and it'll look nicer with more flowers, but I still like it because I told the florist to tie it this way and this is my own design. I don't like it Round shape because it looks too common for me. Though it's a failure, but I'll design another banquet for my actual day. =p
I like the ribbon and the color of the roses, but not the shape of the bouquet.

5. I had some idea on how to enhance my ring pillow but I couldn't get the material I want, so I gave up the idea..
6. I planned to take more pictures in Putrajaya because the scene there are nice and I am wearing a gown. But again due to time constraint and I don't have a trusted photographer Xiao Pang, so just let it go. In the end the photos shot did not bring out the feeling I want due to angle captured. But I still looked sweet..
7. I thought of having a theme for my ROM; but I didn't wanna trouble my close one and I knew it'll create more problems
8. I'd prepared myself for the vow.. But, darling didn't know where to start (or he didn't prepare for it) and he just kept silent

When I found out that I adjusted myself on what I want when changes/alternative are required, I felt so relax and happy. When things didn't turn out to be what I want, I reminded myself - always look at the other side.. My tolerance had made my parents proud of me, my hubby loves me even more and my friends are happy for me.
There are some pictures to share here..

The "bride of the day" - Miss Amelie

I love this family picture!!



We are holding our hands and entering the next stage of our life together..


My failure hand bouquet..





My best sisters from JB.. Love you two!!


We look so pretty in this picture.. This is full of happiness.


A cute version.. Boon, where are you?


My beloved brother and GF May Jean




My cute daddy.. He looks friendly but he can be very fierce..


My lovely mummy.. Sorry that I made you sad and worry. But, I still love you always..



"Yes, I do."


Ring Exchange

A kiss - Promise to take care of me forever.. No regret..

Two families..

I feel so blessed that we had came to our happy ending.. You are the one that I can rely on, trust and have faith with.. It's another starting point for us and this journey will be longer and harder, let's work together to achieve our dream and I wanna be with you for the rest of my life.
Thanks for your understanding and tolerance during the preparation and ROM day. I love you, my hubby Daneal Hon..