It's been a long time I didn't update here...I was so busy and didn't have much time for myself.
My darling came to Singapore 2 weeks ago...It was a short stay yet enjoyable. It's the first time he waited for me to come back from flight in my place. It's a kind of motivation when I was working onboard...I love the feeling because it makes me feel like after married couple life. I believe we'll be encountering it very soon.
On saturday morning, we woke up quite early and had no idea where should we go. We went to a shopping mall near to my place, Tampines One and we spent our day there. Evenythough it was halloween nite and I had plenty of ideas of celebration. But towards the end, we went to bed very early. It was a fun saturday because we had spent a lot on some meaningful things. We bought our wedding band from Soo Kee. It looks unique (in our view) as it's made of a mixture of white and rose gold. For mine, there is a row of tiny diamonds surrounded from the bottom part of the ring till the top. At least, this is something different than the usual wedding band that we see. It's the 'bond' that ties us together and our effort to make it a success one. We'd visited few shops before we decided to purchase. Darling asked to have a small ceremony ourselves in order to put on the wedding bands. (We had no idea whether there is any "pantang" on wearing the wedding band before our wedding day) However, he brought it back to KL and kept it nicely.
I bought a pair of shoes that is not a high heel but a ballroom function shoes. It looks elegant and I'll wear it on my BIG DAY... Besides that, eventually I bought a new mobile phone for myself as the old phone was giving me a lot of problems. The timespam for the fully charged battery can be flat anytime if I have a more than 10minutes chat. I bought HTC Diamond 2 as I like the outlook and it's light.
I think the best part about the weekend is when I asked darling: Where should we go? His answer for me made me feel touched and loved. "I don't really care where are we going, as long as it's with you."
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
His Proposal ~ 11 Oct 09
After my London flight working in business class, I was so tired and felt reluctant to go back to KL. But I miss my darling a lot...I dragged my luggage and tiring soul to the airport.
When I arrived, I felt energetic and I was so happy to see him again. We hugged, kissed in the car. He likes to smell my hand because of my "baby" smell. We went to buy my supper, my all time favourite- Mat Tou Yao before heading home.
He asked me to wait for him in the "entertainment room" as he needed to do some preparation on the "surprise" he designed earlier. The only surprise that I thought of is print out the picture display in my blog, frame it and hang in his room. However, the surprise is really out of my extent of imagination...
He held my hand and led me to the room with the eye shade on. I lean against the wall and I was so excited to see what he had done for me. But the feeling is a bit scary as I don't know what will it be...
When I removed my eye shade, I was totally mute as I couldn't believe what had appeared in the scene. My tears are rolling in my eyes as I saw him kneeling down in front of me. He asked me to control my tears first before he proceed.
He showed me the propose ring and asked: "Lu Chai, marry me please. I want to have you as my wife, my children' mother... I want to start a family with you and it will be a perfect one. I'll work hard and earn more money."
This is really out of my expectation; I really confused and I didn't how should I react. But my first & most interesting reaction from me is: "My temper will be the same, can you take it?"
"It's okay. I'll change myself to bear with you instead."
He asked me again whether I'd accepted while he is trying to put the ring on my finger. "So, have you accepted me as your husband?"
With the fear and joy, my answer to him was "Yes, I do." He hugged me and kissed me with love. I can feel his NERVOUS before and HAPPINESS after I nodded my head.
This will be a major decision in my life. If I choose someone that I don't love and can't rely on, I'll suffer. I always dream of having him as my hubby but I didn't expect it to be so fast...
Darling, there are some words from my heart to you.
1. Thanks for choosing me as your life time partner. We are two different bodies but only one soul and heart that tight us together. We have to work hard for our future and next generation.
2. Even though I kept asking you "Why your proposal is in the room and not in public area?" "Why you don't give me flowers?" "Why don't you stick to the first proposal plan where you planned to do it in the arrival hall with a banner - WILL YOU MARRY ME, AMELIE?" "Why the diamond so small?"... However, I got the answers from you that is really satisfying. U said "Our wedding is belongs to both of us and not a show for others. If I do it in the public but if one day our relationship doesn't work well, it's meaningless. Thus, I chose to do it with my heart and own idea. The "forever friends" bear is our baby, you can bring it to anywhere you fly to as a companion from me. I decided not to give you flowers because I know you're not going to bring it back to Singapore as you have flight. I didn't go for the first plan as your schedule doesn't allow me to do so and I can't wait to propose as I'd planned it a year ago. The diamond ring that I bought for you is solitaire with GIA certification. I'll upgrade it to a bigger one ten years later."
I am happy to have you and sometimes I comparing you with others is for teasing purpose only.
3. Wedding planning will be a big issue in next coming months. I'd foreseen that it'll happen and I'll listen to your advice you given earlier. "Be more understanding and try to learn the choice of words when it comes to any conflict of ideas. Tell me what you want instead of showing black face only."
4. I hope we can stick to our initial plan: Buy wedding bands, ROM, Bali wedding photo and our big day. I am your wife now and I'll take up the role and learn as much as possible for our future.
I love you.
His effort for this proposal. Everything is in the dark...
My Ring that fits nicely on my finger...
When I arrived, I felt energetic and I was so happy to see him again. We hugged, kissed in the car. He likes to smell my hand because of my "baby" smell. We went to buy my supper, my all time favourite- Mat Tou Yao before heading home.
He asked me to wait for him in the "entertainment room" as he needed to do some preparation on the "surprise" he designed earlier. The only surprise that I thought of is print out the picture display in my blog, frame it and hang in his room. However, the surprise is really out of my extent of imagination...
He held my hand and led me to the room with the eye shade on. I lean against the wall and I was so excited to see what he had done for me. But the feeling is a bit scary as I don't know what will it be...
When I removed my eye shade, I was totally mute as I couldn't believe what had appeared in the scene. My tears are rolling in my eyes as I saw him kneeling down in front of me. He asked me to control my tears first before he proceed.
He showed me the propose ring and asked: "Lu Chai, marry me please. I want to have you as my wife, my children' mother... I want to start a family with you and it will be a perfect one. I'll work hard and earn more money."
This is really out of my expectation; I really confused and I didn't how should I react. But my first & most interesting reaction from me is: "My temper will be the same, can you take it?"
"It's okay. I'll change myself to bear with you instead."
He asked me again whether I'd accepted while he is trying to put the ring on my finger. "So, have you accepted me as your husband?"
With the fear and joy, my answer to him was "Yes, I do." He hugged me and kissed me with love. I can feel his NERVOUS before and HAPPINESS after I nodded my head.
This will be a major decision in my life. If I choose someone that I don't love and can't rely on, I'll suffer. I always dream of having him as my hubby but I didn't expect it to be so fast...
Darling, there are some words from my heart to you.
1. Thanks for choosing me as your life time partner. We are two different bodies but only one soul and heart that tight us together. We have to work hard for our future and next generation.
2. Even though I kept asking you "Why your proposal is in the room and not in public area?" "Why you don't give me flowers?" "Why don't you stick to the first proposal plan where you planned to do it in the arrival hall with a banner - WILL YOU MARRY ME, AMELIE?" "Why the diamond so small?"... However, I got the answers from you that is really satisfying. U said "Our wedding is belongs to both of us and not a show for others. If I do it in the public but if one day our relationship doesn't work well, it's meaningless. Thus, I chose to do it with my heart and own idea. The "forever friends" bear is our baby, you can bring it to anywhere you fly to as a companion from me. I decided not to give you flowers because I know you're not going to bring it back to Singapore as you have flight. I didn't go for the first plan as your schedule doesn't allow me to do so and I can't wait to propose as I'd planned it a year ago. The diamond ring that I bought for you is solitaire with GIA certification. I'll upgrade it to a bigger one ten years later."
I am happy to have you and sometimes I comparing you with others is for teasing purpose only.
3. Wedding planning will be a big issue in next coming months. I'd foreseen that it'll happen and I'll listen to your advice you given earlier. "Be more understanding and try to learn the choice of words when it comes to any conflict of ideas. Tell me what you want instead of showing black face only."
4. I hope we can stick to our initial plan: Buy wedding bands, ROM, Bali wedding photo and our big day. I am your wife now and I'll take up the role and learn as much as possible for our future.
I love you.
His effort for this proposal. Everything is in the dark...
My Ring that fits nicely on my finger...
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
My Check Report
Finally, I got my check report. Mostly 80 marks, one 90marks and two 70 marks. The comment for me is: Less confident and not observant. However, I'd foreseen my check result will be average because he is too strict. He was thinking whether to give a "NO" on my grooming column due to my skin problem. After he talked to our IFS, they decided to give me a "YES". If I got a "NO", I'll be called back to office and grounded.
On the way back, I was working in J-Class. It was a full flight and I worked non-stop for more than 12 hrs. I sacrified my crew rest also. This flight is really tiring and almost kill me. Luckily, I survived. I was working with one girl that really "draw line". She didn't give me a hand at all though I am new. I really think she is selfish and I couldn't stand it.
The service was quite slow and I kept asking my chief is it all my fault. She told me that "It's normal and J-class service is too draggy, especially full lunch and dinner service."
Wowwww....She is a nice chief that make me gain back my confidence instead of defeated by her hubby with the comment "Your J-class work is not good and you have to blush up"
On the way back, I was working in J-Class. It was a full flight and I worked non-stop for more than 12 hrs. I sacrified my crew rest also. This flight is really tiring and almost kill me. Luckily, I survived. I was working with one girl that really "draw line". She didn't give me a hand at all though I am new. I really think she is selfish and I couldn't stand it.
The service was quite slow and I kept asking my chief is it all my fault. She told me that "It's normal and J-class service is too draggy, especially full lunch and dinner service."
Wowwww....She is a nice chief that make me gain back my confidence instead of defeated by her hubby with the comment "Your J-class work is not good and you have to blush up"
Friday, October 9, 2009
In London with "Rojak" Feeling
I am currently in London and it's my second time here. It was light load yesterday on the way up and I was on check. My complex leader is good and he is satisfied with my job. But I think his requirement is high and hopefully I get a good check. He is a crew that always exceeds passengers' expectation. I'll update here again on my check result.
I was quite depressed as I don't feel like going out due to how I look now. Redness around my mouth and right cheek, acne and scar on my forehead. I don't feel like putting make up but how to take a good picture without a "mask" on???
Darling asked me to enjoy myself with the sightseeing and I tell myself "YES, I should FACE it instead of AVOID it". I should go for other options than staying in the room and feeling DOWN here.
Why I say "rojak" feeling? It is a mixture of happiness (I'll be seeing darling on Sunday), sadness(my stupid face), appreciative (My complex leader shared his experience with me) and worry (how is my check report as his requirement so HIGH and he kept emphasizing it)...
I was quite depressed as I don't feel like going out due to how I look now. Redness around my mouth and right cheek, acne and scar on my forehead. I don't feel like putting make up but how to take a good picture without a "mask" on???
Darling asked me to enjoy myself with the sightseeing and I tell myself "YES, I should FACE it instead of AVOID it". I should go for other options than staying in the room and feeling DOWN here.
Why I say "rojak" feeling? It is a mixture of happiness (I'll be seeing darling on Sunday), sadness(my stupid face), appreciative (My complex leader shared his experience with me) and worry (how is my check report as his requirement so HIGH and he kept emphasizing it)...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
What Happen to My Face?
I can't recall when it started but anyhow it happened... There are acne appeared on my forehead. It started to "spread" to my chin and mouth area... It's horrible.
I talked to darling about this; he ensured me that it was not related to my daily diet because I seldom take fried & oily food. I am mainly a vegetarian.
What is the root of the problem? My supplement that made my body's heat increased? My hair spray that I was using since the first day I joined SIA? My hormone changed? Long time I didn't go for facial?
After consuming then Collagen Drink that darling bought to me, I started to see the improvement on my face. But...
Yesterday, I was working in EY and there is another set of paxing crews. One of the crews asked me what happened to my face? The complexion is so bad. She suggested me to consult a doctor in Paragon shopping centre...
I felt depressed and low self confidence when I looked myself in the mirror. I told myself don't think about it and it'll make the condition worse. However, the pain is when others reminded you on that and asked you why you never do anything on that... It's like applying salt on your wound
I talked to darling about this; he ensured me that it was not related to my daily diet because I seldom take fried & oily food. I am mainly a vegetarian.
What is the root of the problem? My supplement that made my body's heat increased? My hair spray that I was using since the first day I joined SIA? My hormone changed? Long time I didn't go for facial?
After consuming then Collagen Drink that darling bought to me, I started to see the improvement on my face. But...
Yesterday, I was working in EY and there is another set of paxing crews. One of the crews asked me what happened to my face? The complexion is so bad. She suggested me to consult a doctor in Paragon shopping centre...
I felt depressed and low self confidence when I looked myself in the mirror. I told myself don't think about it and it'll make the condition worse. However, the pain is when others reminded you on that and asked you why you never do anything on that... It's like applying salt on your wound
Friday, October 2, 2009
The Feeling of Miserable and Helpless
I was so emotional these 2 days. What is the reason? Because I am not feeling well, neck ache, mental problem, homesick or lack of rest?
I really don't know. I just know that I feel lonely here and the feeling is scary. It reminds me the time when I studied in KTAR. I need a shoulder for me to lie on to; I need a hand which touches my face & head and tells me to be good; I need a warm hug and the sense of "security".
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to speak up my mind. But, I am really confuse here. I am sorry if I made you worry. But, why not you try to understand me?
What happened to me??? Can anyone tell me? Or because too many things happened at the same time made me feel miserable?
I really don't know. I just know that I feel lonely here and the feeling is scary. It reminds me the time when I studied in KTAR. I need a shoulder for me to lie on to; I need a hand which touches my face & head and tells me to be good; I need a warm hug and the sense of "security".
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to speak up my mind. But, I am really confuse here. I am sorry if I made you worry. But, why not you try to understand me?
What happened to me??? Can anyone tell me? Or because too many things happened at the same time made me feel miserable?
To be continued - My Zurich Flight
I was assigned to work with the b***h. However, I survived from the storm.
Throughout the flight, I just did whatever I need to do and gave my best. She was so impressed with my job and kept telling that she hardly get to work with crew as hardworking as me. I learnt something new from her and I really appreciated. Actually, she is not as bad as I mentioned earlier. This is only my first impression on her.
The galley steward also gave the same comment as I really helped him a lot. Of course la!!!In some circumstances, things that I'd done is reported "done" by him. But, mistakes that he did, he kept silent. Then, the pointer is on me again. But, I didn't argue; just swallowed it.
This is the disadvantage being nice like me. People will tend to "eat" you and taking advantages from you. Sighhhh... I really don't know what can I say.
Throughout the flight, I just did whatever I need to do and gave my best. She was so impressed with my job and kept telling that she hardly get to work with crew as hardworking as me. I learnt something new from her and I really appreciated. Actually, she is not as bad as I mentioned earlier. This is only my first impression on her.
The galley steward also gave the same comment as I really helped him a lot. Of course la!!!In some circumstances, things that I'd done is reported "done" by him. But, mistakes that he did, he kept silent. Then, the pointer is on me again. But, I didn't argue; just swallowed it.
This is the disadvantage being nice like me. People will tend to "eat" you and taking advantages from you. Sighhhh... I really don't know what can I say.
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